Purple large roses

Concept

I have been drawing since early childhood I was fascinated by the world of colors and fantasies. Everyone around me predicted a career as an artist. When it came time to choose a profession, I realized that I wanted not only to create but also to benefit people. At that moment, graphic design was actively developing, specialists were in demand, and the prospects were clear - so I went to study as a graphic designer. To “have money not only for bread but also for bread and butter,” as my father used to say.
I have been designing for twelve years. Then I got tired of this printing race, in which there was “bread and butter”, but there was no freedom of creativity. I picked up brushes and paints again. More precisely, a capricious and naughty watercolor, which she loved to draw so much at an art school, where oil painting was quoted. At the age of 39, I had to re-learn how to paint in watercolor. It was a kind of awakening from a commercial dream that I had existed for a long time.
It was not easy to tame watercolor: it took dozens of courses, master classes, and books on drawing techniques. The process did not go quickly - the hands did not obey. It took two years before I began to like at least some of my work. I continue to study. I watch master classes of other artists because everyone has their tricks and secrets. All the time I discover something new for myself, I try unknown techniques, unusual tools, or art materials.
Due to the constant search for "myself", I did not develop an author's style, but I do not strive to form it. I want to remain flexible, and open to the world, not to stop developing - so that once I wake up, I do not fall asleep again.