Signs of change.
A sense of suffering, struggling, and burning oneself.
The mental outer skin is peeled off, and one is reborn anew.
Once we break down our assumptions and stereotypes, we are made anew again.
At that time, it is always very painful.
When you let go of your defenses and are in the flesh, you are very anxious, very dark, and have nothing but fear.
But when that phase is over, we are evolving into something much bigger and stronger.