This work is not pretentious or formal, but expresses deep and honest inner pain and mind as a praying to God. The contents are as follows.
God the Father,
"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance and
perseverance, character and character, hope."(Romans 5:3,4) You gave me always sufferings after sufferings, trials after trials and test after test. Add more evils make to lose everything from me, gave failures, frustrations and discouragements, those eventually lead to the loss of hope for my life. I got them without being able to protest at all then I stumble and fall. The motivation has already been lost, patience has reached its limit and I am afraid of being noticed by the Lord and evil eye, so I keep everything quiet. I am afraid to hope, trust and rely on you because I feel like you will test me with some kind of pain again. A true father gives his children courage and hope, but I feel you seem to break the will to challenge and block all opportunities, it may be my misunderstand.
My heart is turning blue with resentment, my eyes are bloodshot from mourning, my steps stumble without any power. Lord, please have mercy on me, let it be a new year of light, not darkness. I pray that you will do this in the name of Jesus. Amen