Terra Neidorf, 1998
"Suicide", 2021
from "I am" series
acrylic, textured paste, burlap
mixed media
190 x 70 x 2.5 cm
Certificate of Authenticity is included.
“Suicide”. Work description:
For an artist, suicide is an inevitable outcome of his work.
Reading biographies of writers, musicians, artists the end is often like this, even if their paths are different. I involuntarily begin to think that this is what awaits me too.
And everything for which I now live, breathe and work, will not be able to give me peace and satisfaction in the future. What kind of gift is it then that you cannot bear it? And do we call it a gift? .. Maybe the gift of an artist is not in his abilities and ideas, but in the fact that he can endure them.
Therefore, I am committing suicide now, without waiting 30+ years and losing faith in myself or the world. I commit the act of murder deliberately and do it with myself in the picture, experiencing fear, pain and momentary relief. I'm dead. But now I can live in peace.
"I am"
All artworks from this series are my self-portraits. Images come to mind in an instant. They are a manifestation of various uncontrolled deep mental processes in my work with subsequent representation.
I believe that an artist should have a voice, talk about the topical issues, raise important critical issues of modern life through creativity. However, in addition to the conceptual, the unconscious comes to me, which I cannot always explain.
The series is inexhaustible and will continue. In this way I study myself, my identity and psyche.
